On the Fantasty of Breaking Your Own Legs
On The Fantasy of Breaking Your Own Legs
Here’s the thing about pain, if you
figure out a way to remove it,
then maybe, you won’t have to worry about it anymore.
then maybe, you won’t have to worry about it anymore.
- Welcome to the
almost end of your journey!
- The only thing
that has carried you so far are your legs.
- The weather has
been hot. You’ve been seeing mirages in the distance.
- Not everyone still
has their legs, turning jelly under the scorching heat.
- But because you
have yours, you’re expected to keep moving forward, despite the heat and
thirst.
- (In your dreams,
it’s the sandstorm that swallowed your family that haunts you.)
Benefits of
Breaking Your Legs?
1.
Your muscles hurt
all the time – It’s Sore.
2.
If it’s pain, then
it becomes a tangible sort of pain.
3.
Pain that everyone
can see. Loss that is shared.
4.
You won’t have to
walk for a while, expectations of said action killed.
5.
The perfect excuse
to stumble and stay on the ground.
- Such thoughts plague your mind, how two appendages ended up being core to survival.
- (There’s the phantom weight of your mother on your back. There’s the phantom ache of her weight on your arms.)
- Tears well up in your eyes but you try to laugh it off. A mirthless laugh tears out your throat. The broken sound earns a few wary and disgusted looks from other travellers around you.
- “The heat must have gotten to this fellow’s head,” you hear a whisper a meter or two away from you.
- And maybe it did.
§ What would be the best method to break your legs?
§ How painful would it be?
§ How long would it take to heal?
- You really, really want to break your legs.
- They’re a privilege you no longer wish to have, even if they have carried you so far.
- (There’s no point in having them anymore.)
- Once, you saw a man who looked at your legs enviously. He was on the ground, but then another legless man crawled over to him, passing a flask of water.
- Then suddenly you were the envious one.
- You miss community, you miss having someone to talk to. Your thoughts are loud and you’re always alone with them.
- If you ruined your legs, you’re wondering if someone would pick you up from the ground, steady your steps.
- You miss being taken care of. You miss taking care of someone else.
- In the middle of your reverie, you notice a small child on the side of the road, next to a rotting corpse. You wrinkle your nose at the stench it produces.
- Still, you approach the child. You kneel to eye level and he flinches back, keeping the corpse out of view.
- “Hey.”
- Your voice is raspy from disuse, the child bares his teeth in response.
- You ignore the hostility, cocking your head to the side.
- “Don’t you want to reach the citadel? A skeleton won’t get you there.”
Things to Consider:
§ What are the stages of decomposition for a human body?
§ What are the features of a corpse under the desert
sun?
- The child lunges at you. Unsurprising, since the corpse probably belonged to someone dear.
- If you could, you would trade places with the corpse.
- His punches are weak, it’s easy to hold him by the wrist as he struggles.
- Eventually his energy wears out, eyes fluttering shut.
- You take one more look at the corpse, giving it a slight nod.
- If these legs weren’t meant to carry yourself Then maybe they can carry someone else.
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